have a ? are u sure u won't meet someone else that fits better into
your picture of N? after all there are so many blanks and holes?
to that - I'll take that should it happen. To be brutally honest, I don't
see how so many parallels could be mirrored or outdone by anyone else -
even this is faster than I would expect.
on another note - did you mention the fact that one of us was darker than
the other to V?
all u have only been looking a short time and why would all of us be here
on earth and not some other place and just happen to meet and all an awful
lot of fate Hmm
that case... add that to the list of parallels. He said as much to me on
his own yesterday and I nearly fell over.
did he say exactly
said that he remembered two golds, but exactly that - one being darker
than the other (me)
was my ? did he just say 1 was darker and then u say or did he specify
u hint around
I didn't - he flat out said it without any nudging from me.
he didn't specify who - I jumped right up and said that the darker was
me... and HE asked me why I was so sure. -_-
u should have let him come up with that determination then there would
have been greater validity
give too much information though it is interesting the 1st observation.
I found the simple fact that he made that distinction directly, without
any nudging, was enough. Asking him which was which might have sparked
a hint on my part.
there will be more than just that.
but u know me this is very hard and I am very skeptical
there will be more than just that. ?????
terms of memory questions. It's a given.
hope so that is what makes me believe the most although it is unbelievable
dragon friend asked if I liked u
told him was "like" wasn't the right word under the circumstances
this was far beyond any feelings as simple as the heart
you touched my soul the very inner core of my being the intrinsic me
have you. =)
told him anything like this is doomed
I honestly hope for the best, no matter how long it takes for that to be.
Or which lifetime.
irks me is that constant sensation that there's some far-off event that
will cause such to be again.
can't put it into words.
I could really believe all that then I would be satisfied
have my doubts, at times. Mostly I keep them to myself, so as not to frighten
I can be patient for completion the only thing scary is that I don't believe
in the possibility and so fear it will never happen
my Arthurian lit class got too close to the subject for comfort earlier.
doubt the power of denial."
what way any help in this belief would be a welcome thing
and they brought up the young man and much older woman as a MOTIF today.
I wanted to cry, though maintained my composure amazingly well.
I want to get a hold of the little man that runs fate and wring his neck.
such a nice mockery of the problems here.
know I wonder if talk of our present existence while necessary in some
level to know things will interfere with discovery of what past there is
if there is and u can tell from this confusion why I think B will probably
judge me nuts
meeting u and then why wasn't I 16 or some such
friend hates being 16 and it is not the greatest age and I never wanted
to go back that far , but now I wish I could
I understand. I've wanted to be older, myself - both so I could escape
the trappings of immaturity (and peers that delve into such) as I'd like
to make this happen again.... somehow.
was written well i guess but showed increasing amts. of confusion and pleas
But what will happen, will happen. I just wish I could shake that sense
that something looms on the horizon.
some world event?
I don't know what.
some personal revelation?
be annihilation if we keep talking war
like both, rolled into one and expanded exponentially.
not an apocalypse in that sense.
that would resolve all the ? we would know the truth
imagine what will happen
only it were that easy. I plan, myself, to go on with what I have to work
with... but that sensation occasionally distracts me from that pursuit,
u think is of such importance
honestly don't know. It's just a looming sensation.
I am not pursuing much so nothing to be distracted from
I said, what will happen, will happen.
i was asking V what his message meant are u talking to him cause you are
both slow on the response?
I'm not at all at the moment.
him advice he probably doesn't want
never chatted much before so don't know all of these games and places
worked on my site and ignored people .. chats usually boring
kidding. Idly chat in #draconic can be a very scary thing, at times.
Entire discussion on the "taste" of blood. I just blinked and watched...
just told V he always handled problems well just a feeling I had
an off the wall joke - feel free to hit me for it.
to do with dragonity, but that came through
he could take care of it
is talking of being with the 2 of us in our special place
which special place, exactly? The waterfall, the field near it, or my cave?
don't remember which was our special place that he would be there
has been added to the conversation.
squealing behind V
like that nick... V
think he wants me to leave V what do u think?
is beyond me too
in the name of all is MEEP?
of mIRC - meep being the replacement for "eek"
in a less intense sense.
from someone who USED to be so verbal and eloquent
*pulls out a ball-n-chain and keeps N in chat*
u going to listen to V or fight all nite?
the N I know... fiery temper and all.
sure he doesn't want to watch u make a fool out of yourself
now V quick talk before he takes over again
to kill... rising...)
is an intelligent problem solver u need to give him a chance
tell K your memory he is really out of it today
he will get back into our reality
I don't understand why u were asleep. In my memory of the same place
we 3 were all talking together
I know which you mean, now.
right by the field again.
i dont know is i was "asleep"
mine was the day before our grownhood
was a field?????
one he's describing is from there.
is from near the waterfall.
memory was in the grove of trees near the waterfall pool
what I mean.
like a field and maybe his was a different time and place
a field, per se - just a clearing, right beside the path that lead up to
a few trees, to be exact.
remember that place at all
place u pointed to before i gave u a blow?
a long strip that led from that waterfall... almost a gravel pathway, yet
natural, with a stream following along on the side that stemmed from the
waterfall. Yes, there.
the wind out of me. x_x
have any memory of that
like a lunge, damn you.
think you were watching through the trees at the time.
but not fitting anything remembered
don't remember path to waterfall area. I just assumed we flew there
there was a clearing or some such before it - very long and narrow.
like an outcropping of gravel or crushed rock.
white with gray flecks, against the crystal blue water.
just remember the clearing with trees that you could look out and see the
hard to explain the "how" or "why" to it - just started rambling in draconic
over her for no apparent reason
that "grownhood" you have mentioned twice
way to know that I'm doing that instead of rambling in pure gibberish is
when I start tripping over syllables that I simply can't pronounce.
when one is considered an adult.
that sounds weird, there is no exact time when u become adult, u grow into
a ceremony of that, though. Almost like a Bar Mitzvah, but for dragons
and without the rabbi.
k, kinda get it now
sort of a training for future responsibilities
finally responsibility but beginnings of adult responsibility
more fun and play all the time
fun to play and splash in the water pool
through the spray
- who needs a sprinkler system, at that?
K with water
and splashing right back. Wings beat arms for that sort of thing
have a little "problem" right now - there are rare times where I feel as
though standing or sitting upright are off balance - and feel all sorts
of vertigo unless I lay down. Not sure if it's psychosomatic, or an actual
reaction, but I'd say it's conflict between the urge to be bipedal versus
quadripedal, as best as I can describe it.
u remember the waterfall pool?
He does - he remembered drinking from it before, as he related to me on
or waterfall pool
my problem comes up if I stick to going for memories or spiritual topics
of thought for too long. As I said, I can just will it away, but there's
something to it.
was wondering what memories u had of the waterfall pool for when I remember
u I remember u there and just one other place
i got the memory while i was drinking water i and when i told K about it,
he said things that descried it perfectly
what other place do u remember seeing me in?
I really don't know if his memory is the same as mine
you fly were you splashing
was the fall like what was the water like
told u I think in pictures color objects feelings
first vertigo, now language is trying to get out again. What a day... -_-
i was leaning upon it and drinking (with forelegs against the waterfall)
i remember the water being very clear, like if it was melted snow, and
a small pool or something at the bottom
cant tell, because i was against it, nuzzle half in the waterfall, drinking
all my memories are flash like, very quick
just got a pic of the 3 of us younger playing in the pool together
meyashi mosena sheva, meganeh mesayano shenashefa sa. Meyagano nega mono
shamehfa sa, moganaya. Maseva meh sheh, mosaii shcha. Kra'ga'toh sa, meyana
mosii shava sa, meganafo. Sh'krazayama. - Okay, that was interesting.
k described it to me
a dictionary k!!
luck. I think I'd have better luck winning the lotto than finding a dictionary
agree though that language IS frustrating every once in a while I get a
feeling about a word but mostly gibberish
know N - I didn't like it when you splashed me in the eyes quite so much
back then, either.
you said about struck a nice mental image. In Technicolor.
got the impression I was trying to dunk u when V came to my aid
helped me push u under
It's interesting, having 7 limbs flailing as I got dunked, too. Wings,
arms, tail and all. I wasn't very happy after that, either.
that is why we both flew up
*one* of you did manage to dunk me once.
was very displeased.
both jumped on u
was sooo funnneee
because u said something that deserved a "cold look"
can see u spluttering when you came up
meyaganashema! So'vena sheshchsha! Ove'na N, ove'na!" - funneling words
I said after out of the memory.
I was pissed.
was worth it
that language has some resemblance to german
is, 12-20% of the sounds cannot be reproduced on a human tongue. Seriously.
I still remember the sound.
I think we should give u the job of writing the Dragonese dictionary since
u are multilingual
would be a fun thing to try saying...
Here I am, fractured bilingual with that as a side language, and HE gets
tired of him spouting off with all this stuff I don't understand
here, german language "unites" words as to form a complex one ( something
like to say "big red tall elevator" altogether) now, this word meyaganashema"
sounds like 3 parts joined together
just how I would write it. It wasn't a written language.
a thought, just a thought
it would be nice if I even knew what some of it meant. 85% seems to come
directly from my subconscious.
u should write it seriously
shall we say... is annoying.
it, then take it to a specialist to decipher it
writing from words that are positive u have a whole list
time I write it here, I drop it in my notes text file. No worries.
that study how to decipher codes and are very experienced in languages
how many words do we have now?
honestly doubt a so-called specialist would go to such lengths for what
one guy seems to have "invented." Would laugh at me and ask if I spoke
know what it means, but specialist in Dragonese???
means a language scholar.
just in languages, but they can find the meaning to codes and languages,
if you give then enough time and material to work on
problems with that.
It's a purely spoken language.
At that, syllables CANNOT be reproduced on a human tongue at times.
if I force it, a good portion IS gibberish.
see, i wasn't being serious about it, ye know?
but I took it seriously
it was good job for one of you make a dic of known correct words
far those are few and far between. And I have more curse words than actual
words confirmed, at this point.
Moh shepah, Vantah (well, not a curse there), and Ove'na so far, with a
few that came and went.
like me when i was learning another language
Just wanted to call you Vitru again V.
ahead if you want
he has a way of cutting to the heart of the matter if we could just get
him to talk
exactly - it's not something I want to do on that level, just......................
tell me, im here to listen
grin* Someday, I might take this sort of thing to a shrink. Just for the
look he'll give me when I come clean.
be more than worth the fee for that one moment.
they lead you away in a straight jacket
that might be bad, yes...
I will deny it all
I don't know - call it a lingering feeling.
like that name: Vatru'vesa Maya'gano
realized that same word - Maya'gano - came up in that long paragraph I
quote myself... I guess: "Meyagano nega mono shamehfa sa, moganaya."
name clan name maybe
hate when that happens, though. That's the other part that screams the
fact that it's not gibberish. Recurring words and phrases.
definitely not a clan name
name, however... is a maybe.
Vitru'sayama wasn't the name used, at that time. It was more of a short
thing or something in passing.
like a joke?
Come to think of it...
think I made all sorts of hell for you when you got that title or something
similar - because you guys made fun of me when I got stuck as the "responsible
dunno what to talk about, but i have a question, where did "vitru" come
think we decided yesterday it meant absolute truth without even being questionable
leapt out at me the other day while talking with one of you... that and
when N said what the word meant I nearly fell out of my chair.
not remembering it myself*
does "vitru" mean that?!
was the feeling I got and I have had a feeling for only 2 words so far
the other word?
for mother of K
just ran me over
don't know why - but it's part of that.
know we were talking about your mom her color after I said that word sounded
like your mom
never saw the word.
was it, exactly?
remember one of them u said we talked on it
not how I see usually inhibits if anything
like it as a tool, myself.
cuts off thought for me
where to go dead end
picture no object no feeling no color gibberish
me it's as though a part of what I had to say... what I *really* had to
say but made a mockery of using English or otherwise - is coming through
fully. You see - when it comes to languages, I usually am able to get so
good with it that it seems to be an extension of myself. It's why, now,
a whole lot of that language seems to come through - because I'm so used
to doing that.
jokes and all (Mosheni savena sheva? Meyashi ganefa...)
that comes through completely bypasses my conscious mind most of the time...
so whatever I say means little or nothing to me.
basically, all I end up with is long strings of gibberish that may or may
not mean something, with very few means of distinguishing the real gibberish
from the gibberish gibberish.
So class... any questions?
discovery because it is like a period the end with no where to go
Vitru was so clear
me it's like bypassing my problems and getting to the heart of the matter
- like that.
u don't understand I don't understand V doesn't understand so it is no
communication and stops flow of thought ... (took a communications class)
The problem is I the subconscious connections between word and meaning
aren't there anymore - and the whole thing either ends in me saying nothing
at all or a whole lot that means nothing to me.
repeat, and add sleeplessness in for good measure. -_-
I said stops communication and thought
must go to sleep, nice talking to you 2 again, take care
has left the conversation.
liked our pool story too dunking u (grin)
conv for editing later
time, I say we dunk YOU
think Vitru liked his name
we ever get there again, it would be my pleasure
Someday, I hope.
did u name him thus?
him Vitru? It just jumped out at me. I was as amazed as you were when he
actually changed his nick to it.
it suits him to what is his full name do you know?
Maya'gano is the best I have for that.
always got to the truth of the matter
he is much to quiet
would be nice if I were so sure "K" was fully legitimate. I do know the
Me'fashina part is.
any rate, need to go.
I am not sure of my name except u gave it. The only revelation was
that one very strong thought when looking at it that he called me K as
Before I go, though - what was the word you had for... my mother?
honestly don't remember you typed a bunch of word and I just thought and
said to u I thought that was your mother's name and you said she was light
or white or gold mixed in and named it Manila
want to say Mae'sheva Me'fashina, though. That?
and words not my thing easily lost as I lost the name of my toy
At any rate, night
will try to dream of dunking u