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(Snape's Lament for Lilly) I am not a bigwig or Daily star And I am old and have not come very far You always knew, didn't you, back in school That you saw me, as you wanted, so very uncool I am not strong nor am I a millionaire Insulted me from my clothes to my hair Weakened my strengths and strengthened my weaknesses But I don't blame myself, instead I curse you (excuses, excuses!) All I ever really wanted It wasn't popularity or your money All I ever really needed Was to be accepted as I am All I ever wanted Didn't you hear it in my voice, see it in my eyes? All I wanted was for you to see me as I saw you I made a mistake that one dark day When those friends of yours had their way Turned my life upside down quite literally And I snapped, at you, I didn't want you to see Don't you remember, when we were younger You starved to know yourself & I fed your hunger We cared for each other, same despite our differences Don't you know I was too hurt to take my proper chances All I ever really wanted Nothing crass or out of the ordinary All I ever really needed Was to be shown the way to stay with you All I ever wanted Thought I saw it there reflected in your emerald eyes All I wanted was so close but so far away Then came the day when you left but my love for you never went away I kept it safe inside me, a fire forever keeping me warm despite the cold Then I heard that he wanted to take you away from me forever I had to be careful, but I couldn't stand there and not try So I went to his greatest enemy, begged him to keep you safe I wanted to see you again I so wish I had gone to see you again In my dreams I can go see you once again But they turn dark, I can't stop, I watch him murder you before my very eyes I am paralyzed As your life flashes before my eyes I can wear no disguise When it comes to you, But only after you've been taken away from me. But I get to see your eyes again, every day tho you're dead Buried in a different face, one like the one you wed Like fire and ice in the same place, inside my heart It's your son, I hate him, I love him, I'm pulled apart! All I ever really wanted I never got to put the words out right All I ever really needed Was to learn the magic spell to do right by you All I ever wanted Your voice in my dreams your eyes now mocking me All I want now is to see this through I will protect him, I will be brave I will push him to be more like you I will play my part with no fear or doubt I will show you that you are all I wanted All I want is you, my one and only love 2007 Seeker of the Way |
